This fall flew by like the blink of an eye.
Work took over my life in many ways: I was sucked into a whirlwind of meetings, diapers, and always being behind the ball and never quite catching it. This past week I took several days off and remembered what it was like to live a somewhat balanced life. It was lovely.
I'm now ready to go back to work toorrow and face what will likely be another whirlwind year. My goal will be to stay IN it, not ahead or behind it.
In a short eight months I'll be not only the mother of an almost preschooler but the owner of a preschool in a brand new location. It's hard to believe that it will be here so quickly.
I'm ready for this challenge. The scariest part is making sure that the level of quality stays high during the transition; I need to balance filling many more spaces with keeping the families already enrolled happy and the children busy and actively engaged. I need to balance training and supporting my staff while preparing for new hires.
I can honestly say I am up for the challenge. I no longer feel depleted like I did a couple of weeks ago; I felt I could barely keep up but now I have renewed energy.
It is interesting; my job title of Director says it all...I need to direct all flows of traffic to make sure there are no accidents in every aspect of the school. Yet in life, my biggest cross to bear is that I am too controlling. I want to let go and let things happen. I want to trust and believe that life will be full and good even if I'm not calling all the shots. In those brief moments where I am able to fully let go it is incredibly freeing. I feel fulfilled and happy and relaxed, almost no matter the task. I need to find ways to remind myself how I would like to live.
To this end, I am pledging to journal and blog more often; it's been three months since my last blog post and nine since I've written in my journal. It's needed, it's necessary.
Now as I type I hear that Griffin is awake from his nap. It's time to go play with my baby. I mean, my toddler. He's a toddler now. Oh, and I pledge also that the next blog post will be about him.
